Life Update.
It has been a while. For health and beauty posts. But I have some free time coming up and I can get back at it! (Cliche intended.)
I've been busy. I spent most of 2016 working two jobs, about 70 hours a week. One of them was new and part time. I love working there.
But the other one, my full time gig, was a drain on me. I can pinpoint the start of my mental collapse to January 2016. I was stressed for money and work was slow, with no overtime available. When work got slow, my manager would micro-manage and focus in on me and one of my other coworkers, making it hard for us to do our jobs.
It was a long year of breakdowns and anxiety attacks. It was my first real experience with depression.
Over the summer, I suddenly lost my grandma to explosive breast cancer. It was exactly two weeks from diagnosis to when we lost her. Definitely not enough time. But at least she got to meet and fall in love with my boyfriend.
We have been dating for just under a year now. He has been my rock this entire time. He met me during the worst year of my life and not hesitated once. I'd be truly lost without him.
He moved in with me during the fall and that allowed me to quit my soul draining job. He keeps pushing me to take care of myself and make time for the things I enjoy doing. He keeps pushing me to go to the gym because he knows I feel better when I work out. He's supportive with my desire to eat healthy. But we both have an unwavering love of pizza and being lazy.
I was determined to make 2017 the year I focused on myself and got happy again. I left my awful job and started taking on more responsibilities at my part time job. I'm hoping to make that into a full time position soon. I really love the interactions I get to have with people and that I kind of get to work at my own pace because it's just me in my department.
You have heard me say a thousand times over the years that I can't tell the difference between perfumes and they all smell the same to me. Ironically, I now work in the fragrance department. And I love it. I can get through an 8 hour day and still be able to smell the differences between scents. All without a headache. I have discovered my superpower.
At the end of 2016, I interviewed for a front desk job at a gym and I actually got to start it in February. After a little over a month, I left it. It was too slowed paced for me. I thought it was ironic that I was sitting on my butt all day at a gym. In my short time here, I've seen so much of the worst in people. The blame has been put on me for decisions that are way above my pay grade. Changes that were made way before I started here. I don't want to hate humanity more than I already do. I wish it would have, but oh well. (I'm typing most of this as I am at that job, on my last day.)
On the health front, I'm doing okay. I'm getting in about 5 workouts a week. On my 8 hour work days, I get an hour lunch and I spend half of that walking laps around the mall, getting some steps in. I don't always get a great weight lifting workout in. But I've been trying to at least get my 10k steps in every day. It means I did at least half an hour of solid moving throughout the day. And I had to actively get off my butt and do it.
My eating is on and off. Like I said, I have a weakness for pizza. I have weeks where I am on point and then weeks where I try but I end up eating take out and feeling bad about my life decisions. I keep saying I will buckle down, And I do for a few days. And then I let my control slip. I'll go out with friends for a few drinks. Normally I'll just have water but sometimes I indulge. And that will turn into going for dinner and giving in to my cravings vs forcing myself to have that salad I don't want. I'm okay with where my body is right now. But I am also so close to my original goal weight that I just want to push that little bit harder.
So, where am I going from here? I'm hoping to do at least one Beauty post a week And one Health post a week? Try to keep myself accountable and on track. Here's hoping. Welcome back. Wish me luck!